Sunday, March 15, 2026

An ode to Training Fields of Birla Viday Mandir Nainital

Life is a battlefield, vast and wide,
Where storms may rage and tides may turn,
Yet every scar becomes a guide,
And every fall, a chance to learn.
The cannon roars, the dust clouds rise,
But courage walks through fire and rain,
For those who dare to meet the skies
Know loss is just the price of gain.
In the hills of Nainital, wrapped in mist,
Where oak trees stood like ancient souls,
At Birla Vidya Mandir, lessons kissed
My heart and made this warrior whole.
The classrooms hummed with quiet grace,
The playground taught me how to fight,
Not with fists, but with a steady pace 
To rise again, to seek the light.
The teachers there were more than guides,
They were the compass, north and true,
They showed me where the real strength hides
In gratitude, in me, in you.
So when life roars and wounds run deep,
I hear those Himalayan winds once more,
Reminding me of promises to keep
That I was built for so much more.
Thank you, Birla Vidya Mandir, dear,
For giving me my armor and my song,
You taught me there is nothing left to fear
On every battlefield, I shall belong.

Thursday, March 12, 2026

​๐ŸŒ The Curious Case of Global Alliances: A Reality Check for India ๐Ÿ‡ฎ๐Ÿ‡ณ

Lately, I’ve been looking at the geopolitical landscape and I can’t help but find the irony a bit… thick. Isn’t it "funny" how the world turns? ๐Ÿง
The "Ally" Paradox ๐Ÿ‡ต๐Ÿ‡ฐ๐Ÿ‡ฎ๐Ÿ‡ท๐Ÿ‡บ๐Ÿ‡ธ
Take a look at Pakistan. They are frequently hailed as a key American ally, yet here they are: congratulating the new Iranian leadership and offering condolences for the "martyrdom" of the previous leader—a man the West consistently labeled a tyrant. It’s a fascinating bit of diplomatic gymnastics, isn't it? ๐Ÿคธ‍♂️
It makes you wonder: why is it that the "Champions of Democracy" often find it more comfortable to work with dictatorships while placing maximum sanctions on a thriving democracy like India? ๐Ÿ“‰
A History of "Friendship" (Or Lack Thereof) ๐Ÿšข⚓
If we look back, the patterns are hard to ignore:
1971: While India was dealing with a massive humanitarian crisis, the US sent the 7th Fleet into the Bay of Bengal to intimidate us and support Pakistan—a nation that later harbored Bin Laden. ๐Ÿšข๐Ÿ’จ
The Food Crisis: I often think back to the days of Lal Bahadur Shastri. When India was facing a severe food shortage, the US used food aid (PL-480) as a political lever, threatening to cut off supplies unless we fell in line with their demands. Shastri ji responded with "Jai Jawan, Jai Kisan" and asked the nation to fast one day a week rather than bow down. ๐ŸŒพ๐Ÿšซ
The Modern Friction ๐Ÿ‡บ๐Ÿ‡ธ➡️๐Ÿ‡ฎ๐Ÿ‡ณ
Even now, we see high-level advisors (including those around Trump) targeting India with talk of "unfair" trade and more tariffs. It’s a bit heartbreaking, honestly. ๐Ÿ’” Personally, I’ve always found Americans to be good, warm people on an individual level. But as a government? History and current policy suggest their "friendship" is often a one-way street.
A Path Toward Sovereignty ๐Ÿ‡จ๐Ÿ‡ณ๐Ÿ›ก️
Say what you will about the Chinese, but they understood something early on: Digital Sovereignty. By building their own alternatives to Google and other tech giants, they ensured their survival and freedom from external "off-switches." ๐Ÿ’ป๐Ÿ›ก️
Perhaps it’s time for India to truly lean into its own "Atmanirbharta" (self-reliance). To keep our democracy alive and ensure the survival of our people, we must reduce our dependence on those who treat friendship as a transaction.
Freedom isn’t just about borders; it’s about who controls your food, your data, and your future. ๐Ÿ‡ฎ๐Ÿ‡ณ✨
What do you think? Is it time for India to build its own "Digital Great Wall" or just a more robust, independent path? Let me know in the comments

Sunday, March 8, 2026

When Dreams Remain Dreams: A View from the Quagmire

Many years ago, as I stood on the precipice of what at that time looked like happy marriage, I carried a specific vision for the future. I imagined a son who would follow my footsteps to my alma mater, Birla Vidyamandir, Nainital. He would live in my old house a legacy my nephews had already refused and he would become my dream and my ambition: an officer and a gentleman.
Even world weary men like me have dreams. But some dreams are destined to remain just that.
Today, I find myself "happily divorced," having learned that love is, at best, a farce. As for the Indian legal system? It is a quagmire worse than the British Empire that sired it ......a system so convoluted it makes our neighbors look like paradise by comparison. It is a machine that remains indifferent to the despair, the broken lives, and the suicides of the men trapped within its gears.
But I digress; sometimes the pain gets the better of me.
What remains of that era is a poem I wrote for a son who never arrived. It speaks of a flight that will never take off, and a sky that remains empty.

The Only Dream Left
Spread your wings and take the lead,
To heights where only dreams can tread.
While you conquer clouds and touch the blue,
I’ll be the one looking up at you.
With every mile and peak you gain,
I’ll cheer your name across the plain.
Go on, dear kiddo, touch the sky,
I’ll clap from earth as you soar high.
You are the only dream I have left
I have often said that if there is a God, He’s a sadistic bastard. Sometimes I think the very concept of "God" was a trick created by Saturn to punish the good. But that is a thought for another post.

Thursday, February 26, 2026

Strategic Brief: IMEC and the Mediterranean QUAD vs. The Turkey-Pakistan Axis

The India-Middle East-Europe Economic Corridor (IMEC) is designed to bypass the Suez Canal and reduce transit time by 40%. This project directly impacts Turkey while benefiting Greece and Cyprus. In response to this economic isolation, there are significant concerns that Turkey may leverage its relationship with Pakistan to launch security provocations and terrorist threats against India.

​To safeguard this corridor, India has solidified a new security pillar: the Mediterranean QUAD.

1. The Security Response: The Mediterranean QUAD (MedQUAD)

​India has officially integrated into the Greece–Cyprus–Israel "3+1" framework, creating what is now known as the Mediterranean QUAD. This alliance is specifically designed to secure the western terminal of IMEC against disruptions.

  • Intelligence Sharing: The quartet has established a joint data-sharing protocol to monitor naval movements and potential proxy threats in the Eastern Mediterranean.
  • Countering the "Radical Axis": The alliance serves as a direct counterweight to the Turkey-Pakistan-Qatar axis, which has sought to undermine IMEC in favor of the "Iraq Development Road."
  • Defense Cooperation: India and Israel recently finalized an $8 billion defense agreement focused on maritime security and drone technology to patrol the trade lanes.

2. Logistics Revolution: Time & Efficiency

​IMEC is more than a trade route; it is a time-saving machine that fundamentally changes global shipping:

  • Transit Reduction: The corridor cuts the total journey time from India to Europe by 40%.
  • Actual Time Saved: Where the traditional Suez Canal route takes approximately 18 to 20 days, the multi-modal IMEC route (combining sea and rail) is projected to take only 10 to 12 days.
  • Economic Impact: By reducing transit by nearly 8 to 10 days, logistics costs are expected to drop by 30%, making Indian exports significantly more competitive in European markets.

3. The Turkey-Pakistan Security Threat

​The exclusion of Turkey from IMEC has led to a "peak" in diplomatic and security tensions following Operation Sindoor.

  • Proxy Warfare: Analysts warn that Turkey is increasing its military support to Pakistan as a "strategic distraction," aiming to force India to divert resources away from its westward economic expansion and back toward its borders.
  • Maritime Sabotage: There are heightened alerts regarding potential "hybrid threats," including cyber-attacks on port infrastructure in Haifa and Piraeus or state-sponsored piracy intended to increase insurance premiums for the IMEC route.
  • The IMEC corridor is the most ambitious logistics project of the decade, saving over a week of travel time and billions in costs. However, its success depends on the Mediterranean QUAD’s ability to neutralize the security risks posed by the Turkey-Pakistan alliance. By aligning with Greece, Israel, and Cyprus, India is not just building a trade route—it is building a security shield across the Mediterranean.
  • Relevant Resource:
  • https://youtu.be/w5DrAZZVoOQ?si=_Mftqutwr7bR2sOq
Detailed review why this effects Tukey 

The India-Middle East-Europe Economic Corridor (IMEC) is not just a trade route; it is a geopolitical tool that effectively isolates Turkey and empowers its regional rivals. This shift explains why Turkey is increasingly using Pakistan as a "strategic proxy" to pressure India.  
1. Why Turkey Uses Pakistan as a Proxy
Turkey’s reliance on Pakistan to target India is a calculated move designed to distract and destabilize New Delhi without triggering a direct conflict between Ankara and India.
Plausible Deniability: By providing advanced military hardware (like Bayraktar drones and Songar swarms) and intelligence to Pakistan, Turkey can disrupt India’s focus through a third party.  
Ideological Alignment: Under President ErdoฤŸan, Turkey has positioned itself as a leader of the Sunni Islamic world, a role Pakistan eagerly supports. This "Neo-Ottoman" vision aligns with Pakistan’s stance on Kashmir, creating a mutual "security-for-support" deal.  
**Operation Sindoor (2025-26): Evidence of this partnership was seen during the recent conflict where over 300 Turkish-made drones were reportedly used by Pakistan. This forces India to spend billions on border defense, potentially draining resources meant for IMEC infrastructure.  
2. How IMEC Directly Damages Turkey
Turkey has long branded itself as the "Bridge between East and West." IMEC destroys that monopoly.  
Loss of Transit Revenue: Currently, the "Middle Corridor" (running from China through Central Asia and Turkey) is Ankara's primary economic lever. By routing goods from India to Israel and then directly to Greece, IMEC completely bypasses Turkish soil.  
Geopolitical Irrelevance: Turkey loses its "gatekeeper" status. If Europe and India can trade freely via the Mediterranean QUAD (India, Israel, Greece, Cyprus), Turkey can no longer use its geography to bargain with NATO or the EU.
The "Hexagon" Threat: The emergence of a security alliance between India, Israel, UAE, Saudi Arabia, Greece, and Cyprus creates a containment wall around Turkey's maritime ambitions (Blue Homeland).
"There is no corridor without Turkey." — President ErdoฤŸan’s 2025 response to IMEC.  
Reference points 
https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/full/10.1080/01436597.2026.2621910?hl=en-IN&mi=42qnvu#:~:text=By%20connecting%20India%20to%20Europe,important%20production%20and%20trade%20base.
https://forumias.com/blog/turkey-and-pakistan-grow-closer-against-india/?hl=en-IN#:~:text=Advanced%20Defence%20Cooperation%3A%20Turkey%20is,reflect%20expanding%20military%2Dindustrial%20cooperation.

Tuesday, February 24, 2026

Strategic Risk Assessment: The "Transactional" Presidency Of USA

 

1. The Breakdown of Policy Permanence

Historically, the U.S. "checks and balances" system provided a "predictability premium" for investors. That premium has largely evaporated.

  • The "Executive Pendulum": Major trade and diplomatic frameworks (the Iran Deal, Paris Agreement, and now the 2025-2026 Trade War with Canada and Mexico) are no longer treated as binding national commitments. They are treated as Executive Orders that expire the moment a new President is inaugurated.

  • The February 2026 Tariff Crisis: On February 20, 2026, the Supreme Court struck down the administration’s use of the International Emergency Economic Powers Act (IEEPA) to impose broad tariffs, ruling that "taxing power" belongs to Congress. However, within hours, the White House bypassed this by invoking Section 122 of the 1974 Trade Act, imposing a new 150-day "temporary" 15% surcharge.

  • Strategic takeaway: Even when the "check" (the Court) works, the "balance" is undermined by the executive’s ability to cycle through different obscure statutes to achieve the same result.

2. The "President for Life" Constraint

Regarding your concern about a permanent presidency, the legal firewall remains high, but the "normative" firewall is thinning.

  • The 22nd Amendment: As of 2026, there is no serious legal movement to repeal the two-term limit. It would require 38 states to agree, which is mathematically impossible in the current polarized climate.

  • The "Shadow" Continuity: The risk is not a single person staying for 50 years, but rather a dynastic or ideological capture of the administrative state. If a President can purge the civil service (the "Schedule F" transition) and appoint loyalists to the Department of Justice, the office becomes supreme even if the individual changes.

3. Investment Implications: "The Sovereign Flip"

The realization that "a friend today can be an enemy tomorrow" has led to a re-rating of U.S. risk.

  • Bilateral Fragility: If you invest in a project (e.g., green energy, semiconductors) based on a U.S. subsidy or treaty, you are now exposed to 4-year political cycles. If the next administration views that industry as "politically hostile," your investment can be wiped out by a single Executive Order.

  • The Rise of "Alt-Alliances": In early 2026, we see nations like Vietnam, India, and even Canada diversifying away from U.S. dependency. The EU has increasingly reached out to Beijing and New Delhi to build trade ties that are "Trump-proof" or "Presidency-proof." what does this mean? it means that no matter what kind of treaty any nation has (example Nato) if the USA president does not like it he will do whatever he wants and get out of the whole thing. USA is as on 24th Feb 2026 planning to take over Canada and Iceland both are close us allies but that does not protect them from USA. So if you are a us ally there is a great chance that USA can try and take over your nation. 


Risk FactorHistorical Status2026 Reality
Legal StabilityHigh (Rule of Law)Medium (Rule by Executive Decree)
Treaty ReliabilityHigh (Senate Ratified)Low (Executive Agreements)
Judicial CheckAbsoluteReactive (Courts can be bypassed or ignored)
Sovereign Status"Stable Ally""Transactional Partner"

Conclusion

Investing time and money in a relationship with the U.S. is no longer a "safe-haven" move; it is a high-yield, high-volatility trade. The system has moved from a "Constitutional Democracy" toward a "Delegated Executive State," where the President holds the steering wheel with few immediate brakes. Anytjing can happen it depends on mood a single individual with almost zero checks and balances







Monday, February 23, 2026

The Solitary Sovereign

The neon pulses like a fevered vein,
Through canyons carved of glass and cold disdain.
A million shadows brush against my sleeve,
In this crowded web the restless city weaves.
We march in lockstep to a digital beat,
Upon the grey indifference of the street.
The sky is bruised, a hazy, muted glow,
Where stars once stood, now only satellites show.
And as I threaded through the faceless throng,
Where silence is a ghost and noise is a song,
Kismat paused beside a rain-slicked wall,
To watch me walk, unhurried and standing tall.
"Why go alone?" she asked, her voice a sigh,
Reflected in the steel that scrapes the sky.
"In a world of billions, linked by wire and light,
Why brave the hollow echoes of the night?
Is there no hand to hold, no heart to share,
In this vast hive of curated despair?"
I turned to her, a smile both sharp and thin,
Against the biting wind that tests the skin.
"The path of the Deewana is a holy fire,
It burns above the reach of common hire.
Not every hand can grasp a spirit's flame,
Or walk the wilds that have no earthly name."
Let the city hum its hurried, frantic prayer,
I breathe the stillness in the smoggy air.
For in this rush where every soul is sold,
The hardest hand to find is one worth the hold.

เคถเคนเคฐ เค•ा เค…เค•ेเคฒा เคฎुเคธाเคซ़िเคฐ

เคฎเคถीเคจी เคถोเคฐ เคฎें เคฒिเคชเคŸी เคนुเคˆ เคฏे เค•ाँเคš เค•ी เคฆीเคตाเคฐें,
เคฏเคนाँ เคนเคฐ เคถเค–़्เคธ เค•ी เค…เคชเคจी เค…เคฒเค— เคœ़ुเคฆा เคธी เคฐाเคนें เคนैं।
เคจเคœ़เคฐ เคฎें เคญीเคก़ เคนै, เคชเคฐ เคฐूเคน เคฎें เคเค• เค–़ाเคฒीเคชเคจ เคธा เคนै,
เคฏे เคถเคนเคฐ เคœ़िंเคฆा เคนै, เคฎเค—เคฐ เคนเคฐ เคฎोเคก़ เคชเคฐ เคคเคจ्เคนाเคˆ เค•ा เคธाเคฏा เคนै।
เคฎैं เค—ुเคœ़เคฐเคคा เคฅा เค‡เคธी เคฐเคซ़्เคคाเคฐ เค•े เคฆเคฐिเคฏा เค•े เค•िเคจाเคฐे เคธे,
เคœเคนाँ เคนเคฐ เคนाเคฅ เค•ो เคฌเคธ เคฅเคฎเคจे เค•े เคूเค े เคธเคนाเคฐे เคฅे।
เคคเคญी เค•िเคธ्เคฎเคค เคจे เคฐुเค• เค•เคฐ เคฎुเคก़เคคे เคนुเค เคฎुเคเคธे เคฏे เคชूเค›ा เคฅा,
"เค…เค•ेเคฒे เคšเคฒเคคे-เคšเคฒเคคे เค•्เคฏा เค•เคญी เคคूเคจे เค–ुเคฆ เค•ो เคฆेเค–ा เคฅा?"
"เคนเคœ़ाเคฐों เคธाเคฅ เคนैं เคคेเคฐे, เคซिเคฐ เคญी เคคू เคคเคจ्เคนा เคนी เคšเคฒเคคा เคนै?
เคฏे เค•ैเคธी เคœ़िเคฆ เคนै เคคेเคฐी, เคœो เคคू เคธाँเคšे เคฎें เคจเคนीं เคขเคฒเคคा เคนै?
เค•ोเคˆ เค•्เคฏूँ เคฅाเคฎ เคฒे เคฏे เคนाเคฅ, เคœो เคฆुเคจिเคฏा เคธे เค•เคคเคฐाเค,
เคคू เคตो เคšिเคฐाเค— เคนै, เคœो เค–ुเคฆ เค…เคชเคจी เคนी เคฒौ เคธे เค˜เคฌเคฐाเค।"
เคธुเคจी เคœเคฌ เคฌाเคค เค•िเคธ्เคฎเคค เค•ी, เคคो เคฒเคฌों เคชเคฐ เคเค• เคนँเคธी เค†เคˆ,
เคตो เคนँเคธी—เคœिเคธเคฎें เคฆुเคจिเคฏा เค•ी เคนเคฐ เคเค• เคฐुเคธเคตाเคˆ เคธเคฎाเคˆ เคฅी।
เค•เคนा เคฎैंเคจे, "เคฏे เคœो เคฆुเคจिเคฏा เค•े เคฏे เคฆเคธ्เคคूเคฐ, เคฏे เคฎेเคฒे เคนैं,
เคฆीเคตाเคจों เค•े เคฒिเค เคคो เคฏे เคคเคฎाเคถे เคนी เค…เค•ेเคฒे เคนैं।"
"เคฆीเคตाเคจों เค•ा เคฏे เคนाเคฅ, เคนเคฐ เค•ोเคˆ เคฅाเคฎ เคจเคนीं เคธเค•เคคा,
เคœो เค–ुเคฆ เคฎें เค–ोเคฏा เคนो, เค‰เคธे เค•ोเคˆ เคจाเคฎ เคจเคนीं เคฆे เคธเค•เคคा।"
เคœ़เคฎाเคจे เค•ी เคฏे เคฐเคธ्เคฎें, เคฏे เคชเค•เคก़, เคฏे เคฐเคฌ्เคค เค•เคฎเคœ़ोเคฐ เคนैं,
เคฎेเคฐी เคคเคจ्เคนाเคˆ เค•ा เค†เคฒเคฎ, เค‡เคจ เคถोเคฐों เคธे เค•เคนीं เค”เคฐ เคนै।

Sunday, February 15, 2026

The Dance of Death and the story of 120 brave men who embraced the cold embrace of death and live on in the hearts of men and women of Bharatvarsh

This Maha Shivratri, amidst the chanting and the deep stillness of the night, let us take a moment to reflect on a different kind of devotion one forged in ice, iron, and unbreakable resolve at 16,500 feet.
To think of the Rezang La War Memorial is to confront the very limits of human courage. There is a haunting quiet on those Himalayan peaks today, a silence paid for by the blood of the 120 men of the 13th Kumaon Regiment's 'C' Company. Facing a massive, advancing tide of 5,000 chinese troops better equipped then them carrying more ammunition then them, they knew the terrifying math. They knew they would not see the sunrise. Yet, standing fast in the freezing cold, they did not yield a single inch of their motherland.
It makes one pause and wonder: What gives a human spirit the strength to look certain death in the eye and refuse to blink?
The answer is etched forever into the stone of their memorial, capturing a profound sense of duty and Dharma. The inscription holds a quiet, immense pride that sends shivers down the spine:
"How can a man die better,
Then facing fearful odds,
For the ashes of his fathers,
And the temples of his gods."
As we celebrate Lord Shiva the great ascetic who sits in meditation amidst the frozen peaks, and the fierce destroyer of evil the parallels are undeniable. These men stood as the ultimate guardians of our land and our faith.
Before the silence claimed the battlefield, imagine the freezing air shattering with their thunderous roar, a battle cry that still echoes through the valleys of Ladakh, invoking the divine before they made the supreme sacrifice:
"Kalika Mata ki Jai! Bajrang Bali ki Jai! Dada Kishan ki Jai!" Let us light an extra lamp for them tonight. Their sacrifice sanctified that soil, and their immortal courage continues to protect the temples of our gods.

Sunday, January 11, 2026

A Leopard, a road and a memorable walk in Ramghar Uttarakhand

I've often been asked why, from walking 10,000 steps a day, I can increase it to 20,000 in Himalayas where the terrain Is rough. While I hate using the walking machine or thingjamay  in the gyms. The answer is simple: the view, my dear, the view. This is the road to Dak Bungalow, and the best part was when I saw a leopard cross the creek below me. He seemed more shocked than I was. We exchanged glances. He was rather young and inexperienced, seemingly out of place and apologetic, with a grin that said, "Oh hi, we weren't supposed to meet. Please don't report this to the forest department."
I was simply admiring the bees and flowers. I chose not to mention that I knew the Chief Conservator of Forests for Uttarakhand. Name-dropping rarely ends well, especially when a leopard, tired of forest trails, wanted a stroll on the nice tarmac road humans had built in his territory. Plus, he was quite friendly with me; with my physique, I could have fed him for a week or two. So, we decided to avoid involving the Uttarakhand Forest Department. Besides, who knows how that would end? Government officials are notorious for their excessive paperwork. My father, a government employee, had a file on me filled with health records, birth certificates, academic records, clothing purchases, school fee receipts, and even telephone and electricity bills. To keep it short, both his and my experiences with bureaucracy led us to conclude that discretion and non-disclosure were the best options. With a brief exchange of glances, we continued our respective journeys.
I refrained from offering him any advice. Young people today tend to react violently to unsolicited advice on civility and gentlemanly behavior. I suppose it was my father's tennis racket and powerful forehand and backhand that kept me from becoming the kind of thug the current generation seems to want to emulate. So, we ambled along, with me gaining wisdom about the attitudes of young people, while the leopard might have been contemplating his near-miss. Had he used the word "uncle," I might have been compelled to give report him to the forest ranger. But like a good, old-fashioned gentleman, he simply ambled away and jumped down a steep incline without injury. I made a mental note to mention this to his parents if I ever met them. After all you never know who you will meet in the Himalayas from Saint to sinner, all have made their abode here plus Indian parents have a knack for humbling their children, and they would undoubtedly pull him down a peg or two . "Call me uncle, will ya?" I mused.
As the sun began to set, I took out my torch and continued my walk, encountering a cow or two. Along with a few idiots who seemed to have learnt how to drive their motercycle  via video games and were trying to set land speed records on Village roads. I beleive you call them politely as Morons of the first order of BharatThen, I received a call from my nephew warning me not to walk on the road below due to roaming leopards. I decided not to tell him about my pleasant encounter with the young leopard, as unmarried nephews with younger sisters have a tendency to preach. It made me wish he were married, as then he would understand the power of  woman's words, which even a passionate missionary can't match even though his faith Christ might be as much as St.Peters which is not saying much since they did denying knowing Christ but then you get the general idea.
Oh, what a tangled web we weave when we get married... But that's a story for another time. Dedicated to R.C. Dikshit, IPS who always had a new story to share.

When People leave for the bright light and you search for your home...

There is a specific kind of solitude that settles in as we grow older and the people we love begin to leave us. It is not merely the loss of affection; it is the loss of your history. These people were the emotional anchors of your childhood—essential as a lucky charm, comforting as a beloved toy held tight against the dark. But everything has its time, and eventually, people depart.
I have often believed that a soul holds onto life only as long as it wishes, until the moment comes to let go and embrace the Divine. They find peace, yet we, whose orbits revolved around them, are left navigating a sudden emptiness. Life moves forward, but we remain a little more lonely.
On January 10, 2026, I lost my maternal aunt (Mami), Dr. Puspa Sarin. She was my mother’s dear friend, the very woman present in the delivery room when I took my first breath. There is a cruel irony in losing her just as I left Noida for Pune. In retrospect, I realize that her presence was the tether that kept me in Noida for so many years; she was family, she was home.
It is a strange paradox: when you are a child, 'home' is a certainty, but when you are fully grown, it becomes a question. As she passes on to be with the Almighty, I am left wondering—where is my home now? Is it Nainital, where I spent my childhood? Is it Lucknow, where our house stands? Or is it Agra, where my parents passed away? It is terrifying that something as fundamental as the concept of home can be shaken by a single death.
But then, life is rarely known for its kindness. As the years pass, I realize I now know more people I love in the realm above than I do here on this physical plane. As Harivansh Rai Bachchan wrote so poignantly:
เคฆृเค— เคฆेเค– เคœเคนाँ เคคเค• เคชाเคคे เคนैं, เคคเคฎ เค•ा เคธाเค—เคฐ เคฒเคนเคฐाเคคा เคนै,
เคซिเคฐ เคญी เค‰เคธ เคชाเคฐ เค–เคก़ा เค•ो‌เคˆ เคนเคฎ เคธเคฌ เค•ो เค–ींเคš เคฌुเคฒाเคคा เคนै!
เคฎैं เค†เคœ เคšเคฒा เคคुเคฎ เค†‌เค“เค—ी, เค•เคฒ, เคชเคฐเคธों, เคธเคฌ เคธंเค—ीเคธाเคฅी,
เคฆुเคจिเคฏा เคฐोเคคीเคงोเคคी เคฐเคนเคคी, เคœिเคธเค•ो เคœाเคจा เคนै, เคœाเคคा เคนै।
เคฎेเคฐा เคคो เคนोเคคा เคฎเคจ เคกเค—เคกเค— เคฎเค—, เคคเคŸ เคชเคฐ เคนी เค•े เคนเคฒเค•ोเคฐों เคธे!
เคœเคฌ เคฎैं เคเค•ाเค•ी เคชเคนुँเคšूँเค—ा, เคฎँเคเคงाเคฐ เคจ เคœाเคจे เค•्เคฏा เคนोเค—ा!
เค‡เคธ เคชाเคฐ, เคช्เคฐिเคฏे เคฎเคงु เคนै เคคुเคฎ เคนो, เค‰เคธ เคชाเคฐ เคจ เคœाเคจे เค•्เคฏा เคนोเค—ा!
May she be happy, wherever she is.